Depress and Stress

I'm going to be hiding tomarrow. I didn't reach my goal to enter my partial manusctipt to the Alliance for Young Artists and Writers contest. My mom asked about it today and I completly spun it around to make it sound like her fault for not reading it to edit but I know It was all me... I'm just mad. I've tried writing short stories and other things but they never seem to flow or something. I need to find a good literary magazine or something so I can start small. I'm also signing up for creative writing classes next year and I think a journalism class even though I really hate writing non-fiction. I'm at the point right now where I'm considering quiting but I woln't... for my sake.